i can do amazing things

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 06:19:41 GMT

life is so good right now it's hard to put it in words. i dont think i can, i'm that bad. this semester has only two weeks left and i'm off to my expedition around the world. God has blessed me with wonderful parents and i'm thankful for that. but so far, life has been good. the other week i got mad. it hasnt happend in so long so i was unable to figure out what i was mad at. i came to realize that it was nothing too big and i stopped worrying about it. it felt good wanting to pummel someone and kick them in the face while they lay unconcious. luckly, it never happened. that's my weakness when it comes to relationships, i just dont care because there are much important things in life. it wasnt me that i was trapped in the situation but it was everyone around me. it felt as if i was feeling what they were feeling. you know how that type of weird shit happens? there's a special term for that. i could be losing my mind.

that's my problem, i dont care about anything. the only thing i care about is me, my education, and family. friends should be on that list but i dont think i've put enough effort. recent talks with a few friends has helped me put things in perspective. maybe that'll be my new years resolution: be more open. i then thought about it, there's nothing really to be open about. i'm that boring. not quite boring, dull. a shallow individual. but then i'd say, "i dont give a fuck" i really dont. only God could judge me. hahahahahhaa, i want that tattooed on my arm with the bad boy character underneath! YES

never sell yourself short. my brother told me that the other day. only person that you can disappoint is yourself. the only person you can fail is yourself. the only person that will make a difference is yourself.

i'll be in japan in less than two weeks. that's just amazing! it's quite hard to fathom. i hope everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year because i never really do this journal thingy majig.

sing.

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 23:39:26 GMT

Never sell yourself short.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 04:13:44 GMT

make life beautiful

breaking my back

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 03:10:59 GMT

my little nephew sings somebody told me by the killers. hahaha, it's great

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 09:01:40 GMT

i want to go to a beach. yeah. the only problem going to the nearest beach in sac (folsom) is that i might catch that damn west nile shizer. damn lakes. i wont let that scare me. i bet they used that as an excuse to spray chemicals and poisons on us. sons of bitches. i want to meet or know some one that knew someone that caught this deadly virus. when i do find out that it does exist, i'll be a little more sentimental. but until then...

eye doctor tomorrow =) hopefully, he'll find improvements. it'd be good news. i'd probably jump for joy to know that my brain is fixing itself!! i'd start dancing, dancing to some head automatica!

today is significant. i cant put my finger on it.... (is it finger? i dont know)

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 09:40:55 GMT

white stripes in less than 72 hours! that's freakin' awesome!

i want to go to sleep but all of my clothes are on my bed. i plan on bringing three outfits to school this year. one for school, one for biking, one for sleep. i'll just rotate.

the past week i've been obsessed with architecture. i think i'm gonna subscribe to magazines and read books on it. speaking of books, i've got to mail one.

readers(if any), listen to this album.

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 05:46:33 GMT

when there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 07:17:52 GMT

I GET TO WATCH THE WHITE STRIPES!!!! YESSS!!!

I think i smell a fucking rat you sons of bitches!!!!

people are fucking idiots when they talk about politics, sports, religion, and foreign affairs. politics and foreign affairs really tick me off. ignorant fucks....you live in fucking america! and what's the deal with everyone supporting rappers. "the beat's tight" SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! i dont have much hate for them because hate's bad & evil like breaking a glass rod in your penis but it hurts my ears to listen to it. but...

I'M SEEING THE WHITE STRIPES!!! SCORE! THREE POINTER! GOALLL!!! chicken.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 05:11:48 GMT

everthing is dynamite

i have two nostrils

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 22:35:18 GMT

shit, pilates is genius! fuck you back pain! WAHOO. strengthen your core damnit! doctor tried to prescribe me some medication for my shoulder pain and the next day there was a recall on the medicine. i never picked it up, glad i didnt. stupid ass medicine companies.

Pinback - Tres

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 00:09:10 GMT

Another tear in the sea
Another drop in the ocean
After the fall
Waiting to sink
Oh, solo mio
It's all right now
Come closer
Talk to me
Oh, solo mio
Sah fasa gan
There's a definite feeling
Buried down
Wrecking itself
Taking you with me
The more they was
The more they were
The more they wander from
There's a terrible reason...

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 19:54:42 GMT

this has to be the funniest thing by far
Look at that face! look at the clinching of the fists! NO ONE STANDS A CHANCE!

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 06:24:53 GMT

might as well update this while i have the time. the middle school/highschool reunion/birthday party was pretty fun. mylan is 21! i turn 21 this year too!!! fuck, did no homework this weekend! SOB. mobius band...they're cool.

i threw out my rotator cup...getting old!

Mon, 30 May 2005 22:22:51 GMT

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
3. If I were to wrestle with you in a vat of jello, the flavor would be....
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal

Sun, 08 May 2005 21:28:49 GMT

the thing great about rain is walking in it.

today is mother's day. i gave all the mothers in the family a call. as i was calling them, it made me realize how much i love my aunt letty.

today is may 8th. today is may 8th.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 17:58:43 GMT

my side of the room is a mess.

coachella in 48 hours!

gotta meet my advisor.

i wonder if anyone from africa will be at coachella?

i've been humming abbandon pools - remedy in my head all day.

fucking thumb hurts.

i'm gonna get hella dark. i'm gonna take a before and after picture.

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 22:16:15 GMT

reply with your name and i'll tell you something i adore about you. [[ then copy and paste this into your own journal.]]

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:21:35 GMT

a very spontaneous weekend. i dont think my family has ever been on time for any family event.

highlights:
    seeing the family
    visiting my lolo & lola
    beniceo doing the hulk
    giving advice to my nephew
    driving with my dad

here are some pictures

the fam-bam

they have no idea what they're doing! YES! "just smile and roll around" babies are great.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 07:14:38 GMT

i can't wait till i have kids.

all of a sudden, i'm back home.

eight years ago, my nephew was born. i was in the sixth grade.

i can listen to pinback all day!

i love my family.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 09:32:31 GMT

God bless and godspeed.

8

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 23:11:12 GMT

i remember after attending church going to the bx (store) next door and attempting to make scuff marks with my shoes at the store lobby. i still try to do it if i have the right shoes on, leave my mark....the d.jan scuff mark. i'm thankful for my dad being so hard on us when we were young, i dont think i would be as imaginative as i am now. when you get grounded for summers you will do anything to pass the time; having no cable, nintendo, board games, or internet.
i remember my dad refused or couldnt pay the phone bill one summer and there was no incoming or outgoing phone calls. i remember my eldest sister being pissed off the whole time, fighting all the time with my pops.

i need to go somewhere. some one take me somewhere.

SHIT

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 07:00:54 GMT

how hard is it to put my name on the other will call?! fucking bimbo's. i paid for that shit, they should let me do whatever i damn well please. now, i wasted $20.62 and i wont be able to see a show i paid for. i'll try my hardest to see them tomorrow but knowing my luck i'll probably end up getting hurt in the process. maybe stacey is in san fran?

so it's gonna rain all week. being the first week of spring, it kinda sucks. i thought spring break was the week where girls walk around in their bikini having wet t-shirt contests.

i've been watching a whole bunch of sucky ass films. it's making me depressed. to fix that, i bought Napoleon Dynamite and Forrest Gump at Target today. Gump was only $7.50!!!!

"Are you guys having a killer time?" =)

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 05:57:17 GMT

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 08:55:55 GMT

it will not be windy today.

Sasa turns 22 this month

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 21:15:16 GMT

i donate blood because everybody does it!

THAT'S THE SHIT!!!!